Charles Bubowski!
I’m watching the charles bubowski tapes
A director he’s working with asks him where they can film in East Hollywood
Where’s the romance?
here’s what the ol’ guy spouts about realll livin’!
“Nowhere
The bars are shut down, the big 20 is covered with plywood…
closed down like it was a malaria joint
And that whole neighborhood is very very dead I mean
We used to walk around there and we’d see pimps and whores hanging around the corners eating hot dogs with mustard dripping down their chins
There’s nothing; there’s nobody there anymore
There’s no place to film anything anymore
I get the feeling the world is more and more drying up
I don’t know where the whores are going, where the black pimps are going, where the music is going
But my idea in life is
where the black pimps are, where the whores are, where the music is playing… where the jukeboxes are playing in the bars, where the lights are on,
That’s where life is
That may seem to be a terrible type of life to most people
But you listen to that music and you walk into that bar sometime
and you walk in and try to find a barstool
and you sit down and a bartender comes up and serves you a drink
You’re glad to get it
Cause you’re in a lively joint where something is happening
I think degradation, black pimps, prostitution are the flowers of the earth
I think in those joints where this is going on,
I think there’s great happiness, and terror and horror too,
But that all counts in adding up, when you walk into a place to get a drink
It’s the liveliness,
When you clean up a city you kill it
There’s no place to film around Hollywood…
It’s dead, dead dead
It stinks of death
The puritans, the christians, have cleaned it up
They’ve dried it up, like no rose will ever grow there again”
Ok
So, obviously, that’s some powerful stuff and there’s a lot there to cover
I’ll save a lot of that for another day
probably another day when I wanna talk about Kerouac
for now, I want to discuss where all the excess human baggage is going
When you clean a city
When you dry it up
Well,
It’s likely that there will be less pimping
Less sex slavery seems like a good idea
And I know there’s a distinction between the two but they go together, generally speaking
Less littering, less fighting, less openly decrepit behavior
But here’s what I know cleaning up a city cannot do
It cannot change people into what they are not
And a town with no rowdy
is a town with no spirit
Romance is a rose, but roses aren’t flowers
This sort of old Western American spirit
The adventures that ease the soul of the poor worker
Look like a blight on civilization to a prim man
I certainly wouldn’t call it good
But if I’ve learned anything,
It’s that good isn’t always right
So here’s my question:
That Spirit, that romantic aesthetic which manifested in East Hollywood all those years ago,
the action and stimulation of the soul and her taste buds
the adrenaline of vivacious and blatantly free community
the love of another man’s curse & spit & fist
the love of a man’s own curse & spit & fist
the love of a woman’s freedom with her flesh
the love of a woman’s freedom to drink & curse & spit & fight
It incorporated the restlessness and wildness of man into the culture of the city beautifully
It was the lifeblood of living, corporate productivity and the love of community,
so in a clean city,
Where does the vice go?
Corruption used to be easy to see
Now?
It festers in every suburban home
In the homeless and the hard-working tech developers alike
the fast-food workers and the CEO’s alike
It’s bubbling under the surface,
waiting
for an opportunity
waiting for a rift in the bond of lifetime love
to justify the tyranny of a lifetime of suppressed lust
waiting for a wretched proud man to ground the face of an innocent unarmed man into the asphalt until he dies
to justify the mad destruction of many bitter souls suffering from lifetimes of self-revenge & fuming internal deterioration
Evil used to grow in the streets and the government
Now it slithers under the pavement,
festers in the kid’s room,
hides in the oxygen
and mesmerizes the eye from the wide-reaching facilitator of entertainment
in a world of clean cities that masquerades as having advanced beyond the influence of the fundamental depravity of man
All I see is the destitution of moonless nights
in every single person I meet
and every single thing I see